So Much to Say…

So I wanted to do an update.

Usually I stick with a theme but tonight, I just feel like writing about…well…life.

A lot has been going on with the book, the illustrator and lulu are still working on bleed issues and some other issues as well. I apologize to those who are waiting. Lulu has promised to send a corrected copy to those who received the original version.

A lot of life has happened so let’s do a recap without oversharing (learning) I am still learning boundaries, it’s kind of a big deal. I tend to cling to people way too much too often. Looks like its a bigger problem than I’d thought. Part of it is my Aspie piece of me that is so excited that someone wants to be my friend that I almost can’t contain that excitement- usually it scares the off. Sometimes I get lucky.

I am once again learning how to respect a request for space. It hurts, I cry, but it’s a healthy lesson to learn. I need to learn that people won’t forget I exist. It’s a fear from my past, based on broken trust, but I will learn. I just have to try to stay in the moment and let go a little. All a part of growing up. One of the hardest lessons of all for me. But then again, it’s the theme of so many of my posts. I need to learn that it’s okay to miss people and for them to miss you. It’s a part of life.

I have a trip planned to go back to NYC in two weeks Friday all day through Saturday. Going to see Annie on Broadway and I can’t wait to see The Rain Room at MOMA. Planning to venture out to Central Park as well. There is something so magical about that place to me that the feeling is so…alive there.

For someone who has sensory issues, it’s amazing that I even tolerate never mind LOVE it. I guess it’s an exception for me. Who cares though, right? 🙂

I’m struggling with poetry lately. I get random bursts of inspiration from music usually but sometimes the words just seem stuck somewhere and I can feel the desire to write and nothing happens. It’s awful, lets change topics.

In fact, let’s practice small talk- how did your day go?


About Gretchen Venters

I am 36 years old and I live in Montana. God has set my soul on fire to serve others through writing.
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1 Response to So Much to Say…

  1. Letting go is such a hard lesson to learn, it’s always scary. Enjoy your trip to NYC sounds very exciting, I’m sure you’ll be bursting with inspiration when you come back! 🙂

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