Sometimes I wish I knew what it felt like to feel at peace with the world. For me, I feel like the world is buzzing around me. The lights, the sounds, the textures, and so on and so on.
I want to know what it feels like to just sit in a chair for hours quietly with no anxiety and not constantly fidgeting, tugging at my clothes, or moving my hair.
I have a reading chair. I sit with my legs over it and for a short time I feel lost in the words and the feel of the pages as I turn them assuming its the kind of paper that I like.
I want to feel happily at peace with my environment but it seems like such an impossible goal. I am determined to figure it out.
There has to be a way.