The Color of Fear

I grew up believing that something was simply right or wrong and that there is nothing in between. But there is: It’s called fear. If darkness is everywhere and light is also everywhere… then fear must have a home along that same spectrum.

We know that fear does not live in the light. It cowers like nothing else in this universe. So analytically speaking, not only does fear itself live in darkness, it is actually a part of it. It has it’s own shade of black that we call gray.

People often confuse fear with religious submission but I can attest to the fact that living in fear for so many years is living in a Hell of your own creation. Fear speaks, it breathes whatever life we offer it, and it lives within all of us. We all face it and we each choose how we will respond.

Fear is very fragile in concept but hard to kill. It’s flimsier than plastic but stronger than steel because we hold onto it so tightly. But if you think about it on a grander scale, on a much grander scale, knowing that it only has the power we allow it, it is really nothing but a dark destructive illusion.

It offers no hope, no joy, nor does it offer happiness. It creates barriers and shreds trust that time has built in a millisecond if we allow it. Fear is not a friend but our greatest enemy. Fear is a monster we create from our scars, from our past, from our pain, and from our own weaknesses. It does not protect us, guide us in a the right direction, nor does not shelter us in any way.

In the end, fear is nothing but a false shade of light…much like a wolf in a sheep suit. But once we stop choosing to live in fear and start living for love, living for hope, and living to give back…the world seems like such a happier place.

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About Gretchen Leary

I am 30 years old, I live in the Boston area, and I am writing from the perspective of an individual with Asperger's Syndrome.
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3 Responses to The Color of Fear

  1. Makes sense! Fear doesn’t really protect you from anything… but it does keep you from living life fully! Maybe it is true that “There is nothing to fear but fear itself.”

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