Facing Fears

Sometimes we learn life lessons in incredibly unexpected ways. In my recent post about fear I didn’t really expound much on the good that has come from learning about why fear is such a waste of time and useless.

For so long I believed that as long as I remained afraid of things I would never have to face them. It was a huge misunderstanding of a Bible verse I had read so many times over to comfort myself when I felt afraid. That God wouldn’t give me more than I could handle so I figured that if I remained so afraid that I couldn’t handle it…I would never have to face my fears.

It took a long long time to see how cowardly and untrue that concept is. Basically it means that I was choosing to be terrified so that I wouldn’t risk ever being frightened. Looking back it makes absolutely zero sense but it felt like a security blanket and I never really processed what I was doing.

But fear doesn’t kill evil and fear doesn’t stop it. Love does. Love is stronger than any fear. It truly is, as cliche as it may sound to you, the most powerful thing. Doing what is right instead of being a coward sounds so simple. It seems black and white. But it’s not. Not even close.

You know when you finish a book that has a good versus evil theme and your heart is pounding towards the end. Good has to win and evil has to die right? Well, that happened to me today and when that wasn’t exactly what happened..it was more vague…it occurred to me…

Just as mentioned in my previous post, darkness is everywhere. It won’t ever truly be killed or gone. In real life there usually is no good guy versus bad guy. We are all human and we are all flawed. I felt rather distraught about that for a moment but then it dawned on me that THAT isn’t the point…

Love cannot be killed. Love will always win the war even if we lose some battles and THAT is what counts. We learn from out mistakes. If we never made poor choices there would be very little to learn and very little room to grow. What an an amazing thing to learn from something so random.

I love it when that happens. 🙂

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About Gretchen Leary

I am 30 years old, I live in the Boston area, and I am writing from the perspective of an individual with Asperger's Syndrome.
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